FML

So my mind had been in a boggle lately. When someone asks you if you will wait for them when they go away what would that mean to you? Because to me it means that they want to be with you when they come home, ohhh but wait not in his mind! I'm so giving up on this bullshit two can play this game just wait and see!

I'm so sick of being fucked over, you think I'm dumb but I'm not ... You think you got game but you don't. & maybe when I'm walking out the door with no intentions of turning around then you'll realize just how bad you fucked up!

Gosh I think that Florida really is my calling and I'm headed that way rather soon. FUCK EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW GRRRR!

Im in love with my best friend!

I have been waiting to hear from him for 3 weeks and it was killing me inside to the point where i was about to give up! Finally after 3 weeks i get a phone call from Caleb! Oh my gosh i am soooo proud of him! I made my night! It makes me feel so good to know that he is happy being sober. "Katlyn this is the happiest I have been since I have been a little kid" To hear the person I am head over heals for say that makes me unbelievably happy! I cant wait for mid January so i can see his ass again. I MISS HIM SOOOO MUCH! But its hard to be mad at him for walking out on my when i need him the most when he is trying to better himself for everyone! The best part is that he isn't just doing this for everyone he is doing it for himself! YAY!

On a sadder note one of my favorite residents passed away today! It seems like this time of year there is alot of deaths when it should be filled with happiness. I will miss you Ro you made N1, N1! I'm glad you made it back to the manor with all your friends before you passed you did tell us that's all you wanted. YOU WILL BE MISSED! Have Jessika sing to you now that you are in heaven! You always loved people singing to you and you will enjoy her voice! REST HIGH JESSIKA LEIGH BAIER & ROWENA!!!

REST HIGH JESSIKA LEIGH BAIER!

So Yesterday was supposed to be a good day! I had the night off instead I woke up with the most horriable news EVER! A good friend of mine had passed away in a car accident! Jessika Leigh Baier was a wonderful girl! She was so kind to EVERYONE, she was an amazing singer, and the type of person that you met once and she changed your life forever! I dont understand why God has taken her from all of us so soon! It feels like a horriable nightmare that I wont wake up to. It cant be true but it is. There is so much praise going out to her family at this horriable time. So close to the holidays so many bad things are happening. Life was amazing a few days ago then it was a dark day when we woke up! REST HIGH JESSIKA LEIGH BAIER aka J*BOMB! We have so many memories that I will charish forever I will never meet another person with as much spunk as you! I feel so blessed to have had you in my life. Now you are an angel watching over all of us. Now you can share your beautiful voice with all the angels up in heaven! I love you Jessika you are amazing and you will never be forgotten!

*It's sad when people you know become people you KNEW. When you can walk right past someone like they were NEVER a BIG part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for HOURS and now, you can barely even look at them.Its sad how times can change* LOVE ALWAYS K*BOMB!

Day 1 December 3, 2009

So I have been worried a lot lately about my "friend" he went to rehab about a month or so ago then came home and i only heard from him a couple times, he came over for a few hours then said he would call me and never heard from him again. Then I got a call from his mom last night it was sooooo amazing to hear from her! She said that he was home for the holidays and didn't leave the house once or make one phone call, (Caleb that was amazing of you!), now he is at a real drug rehab place. Which is the best for him. That made my night because i really honestly thought that he didn't go. Then we had our movie & ice cream night even though we watched a movie that we thought was a different movie lol. Couples Retreat and The Perfect Getaway ya 2 different story lines lmao. Oh well it was a fun time. THEN to top it all off today I got to have my nephew/God son for a little bit. I haven't got to hold him in a couple months. It was amazing! I missed him soooo much, it's amazing to see how much you notice a kid growing when you don't see them in a few months. He did so many new things that i didn't even know about!!! I went to church last night with Liz and Lindsey, going to church really has brought a lot of good things my way!